Deal or No Deal

Every day, every moment demands a decision. Will you be a medical student today? Will you let yourself get distracted by people walking past your table at the coffee shop while studying? Will you make that business call now or finish your lunch? Will this be your last cigarette? Will you let your mind dwell on defeats? Will you let depression settle into your being? We are what we are today because of the decisions we made. I will be who I want to be.

I am usually one to stick by the dictum "Small minds talk about other people, average minds talk about events, and great minds talk about ideas." How I want to be the smallest of small right now.

2008

"Remember that the end of love is not the end of life. It should be the beginning of understanding that love may leave for a reason, but never without a lesson."

I have done more growing up in the last 3 months than in the past 10 years of my life. It's amazing. A growth threshold like none my bratty ass has ever experienced. Just for that, I wouldn't trade my heartache for the world. Heck, there are times when I pray for the pain to stay just so I am reminded. So that I keep growing. Talk about delighting in tribulation. Funny how I always officially marked 1995 as my entry into adolescence. Now is 2008. 25 going 26. I am an adult. A baby one.

The Leap

I sometimes wonder what it would be like. Twenty-some stories, 9.8 meters per square second, goosebumps and gut-munching butterflies. Maybe it would be excruciatingly painful for a split second. Maybe it won't. Maybe it hurts forever. Scary. I thank God I am a wuss.